Do you ever get the feeling that your life is not turning out the way that you planned it? Not necessarily that I think this is a bad thing. After all, life is about change (at least the Buddha says so and I've learned that he's a pretty smart guy). Certainly plans, goals, and predictions are also subject to the same type and amount of change. That, however, makes it no easier to adapt to.
I've been thinking a lot about this concept lately. My inspiration (if you want to call it that) has been watching old episodes of the OC. Ok, yes I admit it I am an OC freak. I own all four seasons on DVD and have seen every single episode. Anyway, that's neither here nor there. When I was growing up, I always though of myself as the big athlete. Granted I was never the best athlete when it came to school teams, barring that, however, I had a tendency to be among the top 2-3 players on the various teams I played on. Up until probably 9th Grade I was quite certain that I was going to make it to the pros (not necessarily the NBA mind you) and have all the money, cars, girls, etc. Then I got into football and decided taht I would parlay that into a college scholarship, get into a big school with both a good football programs, and get a great education. Again, I didn't have the wherewithal, determination, or perseverance to achieve that dream.
So I've decided I have a severe problem with following through with things, with maintaining any sort of drive for very long. Here today gone tomorrow, the story of my life I guess. Not that this blog makes sense to anyone who decides to read it, but it is the first thing that I have written (in any format, in any context) for quite a long while. I have been stuck in, what Kerouac and Ginsberg referred to as a "blank period." It isn't fun, but I can't help it, can't pull myself out of it. I need a break from life.
Anyways, Peace out. A-town down.
2 comments:
So, I'm going to disagree with you (SHOCKER, I know)...
Don't say you don't have the stick-to-itive-ness to complete a dream you had in high school. Seriously, that's not correct. If we all were still pursuing what we wanted to be when we were children I'd be a nut-job actor, Jason would be Heman, Patrick would probably a monster truck driver, An an Evangelical preacher etc, etc, etc. Get my point?
Cheer up Colby Jack. Go roll in the snow or hug a puppy. :)
"Again, I didn't have the wherewithal, determination, or perseverance to achieve that dream"
But those two dreams depended a whole lot upon luck, and super extreme althletic ability (no, I'm sure you're athletic, but in the top, say 2,000 people out of 20M young people saying the same thing -- you'd have to be in the top .01%!!!)
I'd say pick a goal(s) where determination and perserverance have a chance to actully achieve said goal(s).
Want to be an Astronomer? That's doable. There aren't many jobs out there for them, but you can certainly achieve that goal with determination and perserverance.
Want to be a Surgeon? Actually, lots of demand. Again, determination and perserverance will come through.
Want to a top notch web designer and programmer. Huge demand, lots of challenging work. Again with determination and perserverance it is achievable.
I know you probably don't want any of the above, but they are examples. Think up your own.
Look, don't aim low, aim high -- but aim at goals where determination and perserverance weigh a lot more than plain dumb luck and 'extra-extra-extra' ordinary ability.
Anyway, that's the way I see it.
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